I am in a fankle. A couple of weeks ago, Dulcie stopped being a superstar sleeper and decided that she absolutely would not sleep if she was in her cot. We could get her to fall asleep in our arms, but as soon as the tip of a single hair on her head so much as grazed her own mattress, she was awake and screaming. After a fair few nights of next to no sleep for me, bleary eyed, I took her into bed with me so I could doze while she fed. I can feel Supernanny's glare burning a red-hot "I told you so" as I type this because now I cannot get Dulcie out of our bed for love nor money.
Graham has been relegated to the spare room because Dulcie has completely taken over his side of the bed. Over the last week she has spent no more than a couple of hours sleeping in her cot and, worse than that, about 90% of the time she's in our bed, she is firmly attached to my boobs. I feel like I've painted myself into a corner with her and just can't get out of it. I sleep really badly with her in the bed with me (contorted into uncomfortable positions and constantly worrying I'll smother her) but it is the only way I can get any sleep at all.
I've tried to stay strong a couple of times this week, putting her into her cot and trying everything I can to soothe her there, but after four hours of sobbing (from Dulcie and from me) I've caved in and taken her into bed with me again. Once she falls asleep there, Graham can sometimes manage to transfer her back into her own cot without waking her (if I try to lift her she just smells milk and her eyelids snap open) but she'll always wake up after an hour tops and start screaming once she realises where she is.
I knew it was a bad idea to take her into bed with me in the first place, but I just wanted to sleep. Is that really so wrong of me, Supernanny? I'm wondering if a dummy would help, but having got through more than ten months without one, I'm loathe to get her hooked on a dummy now. But perhaps weaning her off a bedtime dummy down the line would be easier than weaning her off big bed and boobs now? Oh, I am in a mess.
To top it all off, Dulcie is going through a stage where she can't bear to be apart from me and starts crying if I so much as turn my back on her, let alone (God forbid) try to leave the room for a minute. I'm not sure whether this is contributing to her nighttime behaviour, but it certainly makes it harder for me to cope with it. Other than when Graham gives her her nightly bath, this baby is literally on me 24/7. It is nice to feel wanted, but I'm really not sure how much more I can take. I just want my bed back, but a wee hour or two of baby-free time in the evening wouldn't go amiss either.
Has anybody got any bright ideas, or am I really going to have to summon the wrath of Jo Frost?